Foggy windows

Its so nice to be back home for a few days to be able to take photos of my closest, pretty friends while I have the chance in between working so much. This is Katie and she let me use her as my model for today and so we took these photos by her house. This little woodsy spot and a few down by the bay side during golden hour.
The light was so incredibly perfect in some of these photos it just fills me up inside.

Solid ground

I asked my dear old friend Allie to be my model for today's 365 after we worked a shift together this afternoon, so she grabbed a few maxi dresses and we drove over to the property right beside where we were working. The sunlight was so beautiful all day long and everything was perfect except the gnats biting my legs all over and the sand spurs that attacked her dress and how we tried to put them out and one got stuck deep into the tip of her index finger and she started bleeding like crazy and we we got all sweaty and all this happened within the 15 minutes we were shooting. haha. I love photographing and all the dramatic situations it involves.

The new beginning

I know, this is my third attempt at this.
Two times I have failed and each day I have felt disappointment in myself because of it.

The secret is that I have been thinking about trying again, for the third time, for a few months now - because more than anything I need to prove to myself that I can do it. Everything else will fall into place.

Taking challenging photographs breathes life into me. It gives me a sense of purpose and it gives me the ability the reflect on myself in a strange and humbling way. It is something I truly believe God has designed for me to do because these past two years that I have been neglecting it has left me feeling somewhat empty and unaccomplished.

We have to make our passions a priority or else they will start to rot us from the core to the surface. 

I feel so good right now about deciding to do this with every intention of fulfilling it to its completeness.

I am, however, aware of the reality of it, and I know there will be days I will absolutely dread even picking up my camera. On those days, I will hope to either be encouraged from someone or something on the outside, or go back to this first photograph to read my hearts desires, and find I can take at least one image and feel satisfied.

There are a few little things I want to do differently this time around, which will actually make it more challenging but will be so much better in the long run. I am sure more development will occur over time as far as my "in my own head" rules go with this project. I am excited to see what becomes of my passion and myself as I dive head first out of my fluffy little comfort zone.

By the way, this photograph was extremely painful to take. I had to walk to the end of that pylon in water I thought was much shallower and that grass that looks real pretty is sharp as a needle on the tip and i now have itchy swells on my legs, arms, neck, and left eye lid. Its okay though, there will be so much worse than this. 

P.S. Yes, I actually did purposefully start mine of the day after Allie Reed finished hers, I have been waiting :)

 

Womb

I had a wonderful photoshoot in the college gardens a few weeks back with this lovely couple who is expecting. I meant to upload some images sooner rather than later but life got in the way.

the first day

I want to try and explain the past two years of my life in photographs.
The wrecking, the sinking, and the surfacing that comes with growing into a woman from a child.
I think myself to be okay with words but I wanted to make this more than words because it is. The past two years of my life are probably similar to what most people go through at some point in their lives, but for some reason its a depth in which I don't really think words can do it justice. I'm kinda rusty, I personally think, with my photography as I have not invested my whole into it everyday these two years as I used to.
There comes a time when you have to chose which things in life begin to take precedence. And for me, I had no idea how to do that so I gave up on everything.
I'm learning about myself that I give up on things that aren't perfect, because I have a very obsessive personality with perfection. However, I am working on this, on changing my mindset to working really hard on things, whether I will ever be perfect or not... I have to, or else I am going to sink again and I don't think I could hold my breath that long for a second time.